December 2010
45 posts
New Years
I don’t really know what I want for 2011
I guess a better year and that everything will get better and easier
Anyways Party tonight :) Sam and I are finishing up the ballons :)
Colorful :)
Happy New Years Everyone
Sam is living with me now :)
I really wish that my mom and I would get along better again. We are good for a couple of days and then we are worse. Lately I feel like all she wants is for me to move out…
sad day for me today :’( and still miss sissi…cried again yesterday :/
Hanging out with Scott after my mom and I were had it again this morning but Scott is cheering me up :)
Honestly I’m so happy...
Hate when people point out really skinny people! You can tell that they are skinny and that prob something is wrong with them and the person that points it out to you even knows that they have a problem
Its just horrible because I know what it feels like to be sick and go through that! Hell I still sometimes feel to fat but I try to get over it…
Idk…just leave them alone and...
Best Text Ever
Yesterday 12/28/10
From Scott and it said
“hmmm sylvia…I think I remember this gorgeous wonderful person =)”
that made me smile so much :)
YAY!!!
SAM IS HERE!!! AAAHHHH :) SO EXICTED!!! :)
<3
SAMANTHA!
bla feel fat! :/
But an hour and a half till Sam gets here!!! And another half an hour till I leave for the airport to go get her!!! :) <3
Making Samantha a poster that I can hold up when I pick her up! hehe :)
Tomorrow!!!
I honestly can’t wait!! My best friend Samantha Rickards is coming tomorrow and I am picking her up from the airport~ I haven’t seen her in almost a year so I can’t wait to see her!!!
Christmas List gets longer
Claddagh ring, Uggs, earrings, arie underwear from my Mom
A nice coat from my Dad
Calvin Klein coat and earrings, plus money from my Grandmother
Money from my Aunt Gigi who is in Virgina
A wonderful beautiful necklace from my baby Scott
A bracelt and earrings from my friend Alyssa
Going to get more presents when I actually hang out with my friends :) and going to...
Following the trend lol
Claddagh ring, Uggs, earrings, arie underwear from my Mom
A nice coat from my Dad
Calvin Klein coat and earrings, plus money from my Grandmother
Money from my Aunt Gigi who is in Virgina
A wonderful beautiful necklace from my baby Scott
Going to get more presents when I actually hang out with my friends :) and going to give them their presents :)
Worst Christmas...
I can’t complain. It wasn’t a bad christmas. got great presents and tomorrow there will be more…but it was such a sad christmas…
I cried three times because someone was missing tonight and she won’t ever come back. It has hit me now and it hurts so much. I don’t know how to deal with it other then cry and cry…
Well tomorrrow I am going over to Scotts for...
Sleep
Please take over me now so I can stop thinking and then start crying..
:(
:’(
The Word
Legitimate is going to bug me all night and all day tomorrow.
ugh.
bla.
gnight
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Legitimate
How in your eyes am I not legitimate? I’m dating your brother and I can’t come along to meet you because I am not legitimate..
Oh I will be after 3 or 4 months of dating your brother…then I will be legitimate…
Honestly thats so rude. I’m sorry. You think you are wise? Not really…
In my eyes I would be legitimate if I were to marry your brother!
Thanks to you...
Seeing as christmas is next week I honestly should start wrapping up my presents…or at least finish up half of my presents. They are missing some things…lol
I feel differnet lately. Also my stomach is always going up and down. once i feel ok then i feel sick again…idk what is going on :/
Tired and my stomach feels bla again
ssslleeeppp time
Ugh.
My last final is tomorrow. And I am studying my head off right now. Finally taking a break. The essay questions are all the same. I hate that my Professer gives us 5 essay questions to work on but he will only pick two out of the five for the Final. yay so right out all the answers and memorizes it all and hopefully he will pick the two that are my best…
Ok back to studying. Final at 9 in...
Everytime
I Dance I think of germany..I think “oh eva would love this dance I just came up with” I feel like I would have the freedom I want over there…that I need to do what I want. Why is this thought all of a sudden popping into my head?
The only thing that bothers me is if I do leave….I dont want to lose someone that I have right now.
Like I promised myself for the rest of my...
Fun Day
With Alyssa! Watching 16 and pregant…oh boy! Those kids. Listen if you are under 18 don’t have sex or unprotected sex!!
Scary how know kids have sex at the ages of 12-16. My mom asked me the other day “Whatever happened to waiting?” haha
But honestly 12 and pregant (like some girl in germany) thats very scary!
Anyways time to study for my final..thank god last one!
“I’m not calling for a second chance, I’m screaming at the top of my...”
– James Blunt - Same Mistake
I can’t say why I am annoyed about everything today but then I calm down and im ok.
I don’t know why I got so upset when you had to leave today. I knew you had too evenutally but I didn’t want you to leave. Just not today. I need you today…I honestly do. You cheer me up when nobody else can. You make me think of us and then just you and not of anything else. With every...
Bad Weather
Honestly if you know that the weather is bad and the roads are bad then why don’t you leave earlier to get to an engagement? Its not that hard. You drove on the roads already you know it is bad. So come on.
Why don’t you just cancel? Would be better…
So annoyed today. Really just want to punch the wall out…ugh
Tired
Of everything.
emdel:
I want brownies. And pancakes. And French Toast. And some hot chocolate. And maybe some pickles. Why am I always so hungry??
Because you are a growing girl Emily lol and honestly I really want pancakes, french toast, and hot chocolate too!
Tears
Tears
Run down my face
Till I shiver and ache
Tears
Run down my face
Till I can’t breathe and fall asleep
All these tears
Nine Hours
Of Babysitting is honestly enough for me. Crazy long day. Very tired.
Still really upset about yesterday…. :’(
Waiting for my baby to get off work…hopefully eventually or I am going to bed
Night.
Honestly I don’t think we can fix our relationship. I know you try. You try to talk to me and call me but I just don’t want to talk to you anymore… I don’t have anything to say to you anymore. You have broken all your promises and you are with someone that is not good for you
I wish it wouldn’t be like this but it is… :(
My last class of ethics was today! Kinda sad but next week I got finals and then I am finally free…at least for christmas break!
Waiting for someone to wake up…please wake up. Because I already texted you a million times and wrote on your facebook wall and I have been up since 7, tired but kinda hyper and want to see you and do something SO WAKE UP.
Or at least text me back.
yes, i...
Well seeing as you don’t have time I am hanging out with Alyssa and have plans tonight with her.
I’m really mad and annoyed with you. You have no idea that you made me mad or hurt me by what you are doing today. And today was supposed to be a special day of just us hanging out. I don’t get it
Alyssa’s dad his funny! He always cracks me up because he treats me like a...
umm yeah
lovely.
Annoyed
Great way to end the day…with being annoyed at someone that I don’t want to be annoyed at.
Don’t you think I don’t worry about you? Don’t you notice that I don’t like what your doing tonight? Can’t you tell that I am torn because I dont’ know what to do. I can’t tell you not to go, because you have every right too, but then again I am stuck...
this time of season...
Brings back lots of old memories. Pretty much all memories. Good, bad, sad memories. More bad and sad memories then good. bla..
Anyways my toliet is clogged up and I really have to go to the bathroom but I can’t. I have to wait till it “unclogs” itself…but what if it doesn’t? I mean my toliet looks pretty gross
So Im going to my boyfriends house Scott so I can use...
I know that I should call you and tell you that I am not coming home and what I am doing but I forget and it feels annoying to always tell you what I am doing and where I am because I feel grown up and I want to do what I want to do. But you know like you always say ” I don’t care at all” such a lie…
I hate waiting. I hate waiting to find out if they got the dvd and what...
Sing me to heaven
If you would comfort me..Sing me a lullaby. If you would win my heart sing me a love song…
Sing me a lullaby..Sing me a love song…a requim
Love me
Comfort Me
Most amazing song ever and still brings tears in my eyes…
Facebook
Honestly stop trying to fix everyone’s pages and please let me use my facebook…I really want to update my status right now
great.
gnight
Christmas Shopping
I can offically mark of two people from my christmas list! I still have a few more people to go but I know already what to get them so that will be easy :) The only person that I am still clueless is for my dad…no idea what to get him as always.
Other then that I am still really stressed out. I broke down crying today because of all the stress! I just can’t take it anymore. I need...
Dreams don't match real life
In my dreams everything seems so easy. I see what I want to do and what I have to do and I get there.
In real life I am not moving forward at all. I feel like I can’t see my path anymore. Its hazy.
My tears will fill the night tonight